To get out of my parents house.

my parents have been using my computer to go online and shit which, whatever is fine when I'm there but tonight I got home and they had gone on and I'm pretty sure were trying to look thru my pictures, my facebook page was open and some of my preferences on my computer were messed with and I don't know how to fix them.

UGGG.

and someone keeps moving this stupid tiger stand I have in my room, which isn't that big a deal but I have it in a place where I like it and it keeps getting moved either to the middle of a walkway or behind the bar...I have enough crap that I don't have room for that I don't need someone rearranging the shit I have found a place for.

Annnd my Dad is trying to help me find a job because the economy sucks but he keeps like signing me up for shit and he doesn't even know what it is....he signed me up for some six week course thing, which is really just a small book they send you where they talk about their actual book the whole time and try to get you to buy it and then enroll in an actual class...he was like "oh yeah, what was that about? I didn't even read it I just signed you up for it"....He puts my full name on shit, and fills out my number and gives away my email...I hope he doesn't know my ss# cause he would probably give that out too....I mean he was telling me I should sign up for the Navy Reserves!! I hope he hasn't sent in an application....

I just don't know.
I need a job so I can make some money, so I can pay bills and afford an apartment and hopefully never move back in with my rents again.
I mean I'm thankful and everything, I'm just used to living without adults and becoming my own adult that I just can't go back to being the child.

Plus I want a place to have Bronson and Baghera living together again :)
haha




btw. I like Transformers, even tho the theater was hot and uncomfortable, people were clapping, there was almost a fight before the movie even started, annnnnd some guy brought a baby into the movie....yeah I'm talking like not even a year old....

A call back from one of the millions of jobs I sent my resume out too....
I think it was the one that requires me to travel between Boston and NH....ehh...
We will see, it's a job...
I'm calling her back tomorrow.

I really just want my own studio.
Any one know people who need some senior portraits done?
Or some baby photos?

I can already imagine my studio haha
I want to give the people waiting coffee or tea and some yummy cupcakes or cookies haha
I think it would make the experience more enjoyable, I found my senior portraits kinda awkward....

All I need is money!!!!
Money sucks!

Transformers tonight kinda excited.
Bashachusestts this weekend, hopefully fun.
Vermont on the 3rd, sooo excited!

Intentions were always clear, good or bad.

Life would be much less complicated.
I think.

have no job, money or phone.

Still don't quite know where we stand.

Still cleaning and unpacking.

So been doing a lot, yet not enough it seems.

Foxwoods was wicked sweet the other night, free drinks, some gambling, a whole day at the spa, delicious breakfast and dinner, amazing showers and beds. We want to do a mother daughter day to the spa there, cuz it's only like 25 for the day and it's sooooo relaxing, I was relaxed the whole next day as well haha

I need to find a job, although I'm thinking about going back to school now for......... teaching haha

I kind of want to be a middle school, or elementary school art teacher, then I could do all the crafts I love and do travel writing and photography during the summer :)

that would be an amazing kind of life.

I'm not looking forward to moving out of this place again at the end of summer, that is if we can afford it, it's taking me soo long to get everything organized and put away. Then again I won't have to go thru the boxes of stuff from high school or my clothes or anything so it should go a little smoother. I just wish mi madre would relax a little, she can never just sit and not do anything for even like half an hour, she always has to be doing something, but then complains that she is always doing thing..... uurg.

Oh well, Alicia's tonight then my family grad party tomorrow, I doubt that any of my friends are gonna come, Phil has a show the same time at a skatepark, I personally would rather go to that anyways haha but oh well, family time is good too I suppose. The family seems to be getting along better now, or at least they can all be in the same room together which is new haha. AND the cottage is almost done!!

We revamped, well Biffer and my Uncle Tommy mostly redid the cottage. We have a new closet in the back room, a new shower, new floorsin the kitchen and the porch, new sinks (two now in the kitchen), no carpet (all hardwood) and we are going to have a hot and cold running outdoor shower! whoot whoot! I want to decorate it so that we feel like mermaids haha, Lindsey has one at her place in the cape that I just LOVE LOVE LOVE!

okay well I snuck away from cleaning for enough now......

Constantly just keep proving my point.
I don't get how to get it thru to u.
Unless it's not to be with u.

TODAY!

I'm trying not to let recent events keep me down and just be happy, I hope it works, I just want to have a good time.
This party is going to be a big ol' mess of fun.

I'm gonna miss this place and the the good times we've had here.
GoodBye Plumtrees!
GoodBye UMass!

Let's Party!

Final.
Whoo.
It went, okay. I probably could have a read a few more of the books I was supposed to but all in all, whatever.

Just a couple papers to write then I am really really finished! Whoo!

Tonight Phil and Shackman and Amber are heading up so we can venture to NY tomorrow for the Daily Show! Whoo! I guess the guest is the former speaker of the house.... hummm.

So much to do this week still, packing, moving shit out, fixing the wall, shopping, cleaning and organizing for the party...it might rain some on Sat, shitty.

I really hope shitty people don't come or if they do that they don't fight. I'll be very very very upset if the last party in Plumtrees ends with jail time, broken shit, stolen shit, or tears, well I'll prob cry cuz I'll be sad to move out, but I don't want to cry for any other reasons.

I hate when people tell you that you shouldn't feel the way you do about something just because they don't feel that way about it and that they can't, or won't, understand where you are coming from. That is Lame. Very.
Oh well.

I need some water I think.
It feels like my lungs are sticking to my ribs again.
Annnnd my shoes the other night, from walking to the non-existent hookah bar in worcester, gouged out a chunk of my heel, ouch and yuck!

I have a feeling that this summer could be pretty amazing if we let it.
:)

to the end.

scary shit.

I'm still being a slacker too haha no good, no good.

I've been looking at apartments in the worcester area... they are pretty cheap but I want a back yard and something I can live in for a few years maybe. They have to let me have cats too! I can't wait to live with my babies again! I feel bad taking Baghera away from Phil's sister tho, she loves her :(

I need to find a job soon, classes end tomorrow and then I have some stuff to finish up on Weds then I think I'm gonna try job hunting the rest of the week if I get home....

Things I have in my near future:
End of college classes: Tomorrow.
Final final: The 18th
Daily Show with Jon Stewart: The 19th
Graduation: The 23rd
Final Plumtree Party: 23rd
Moving day: 25th :(
Cleaning day:26th :(
Celebrating Kristy's BDay at Foxwoods: 27th, 28th
Summer Friends and Craziness.

:)

I'm done waiting for life to begin.

Even more shit.

Turns out the CD of my portfolio I sent to the Salt Institute was blank. WTF.
They let me resend it but that can't look good, especially since they couldn't find my letter of recommendation at first either, and I still haven't faxed over my transcripts.
Wicked Cool.

I mean I wasn't sure anymore if I actually wanted to go up. I don't want to be secluded anymore, but I wish it was my decision to make.
I'm guessing now that it will probably be made by them...

I have at least 6 short papers to write for one class, on top of probably another 10. eek!
I have a 2200 word paper due on Monday.
I have a 20 page memoir, and a rewrite of another paper due Tuesday.
Ugggg...
I have to stop by the film department to make my certification official.
I have to stop by the global ed office to make sure I finished those requirements.
I have to write a paper about my internship and fill out an evaluation to get those credits.
I have to make sure my teacher changes one of my grades before graduation.

Instead of doing all this stuff I am writing a live journal entry. Great work ethic.

I'm scared and stressed and me and Kristy have the swine flu.

12 more days.
Then one more test.
Then done.
Well, then sitting in the hot sun for two hours, hopefully drunk.
Graduations aren't really that much fun at all.

Then...done.

Weird.

I hope our graduation party doesn't suck.
And that the house doesn't burn to the ground or collapse.
I need that money from the security deposit for kitty neutering/spaying, and getting my cell phone back on.

I can't wait to have a job and a career I enjoy.

in the living room talking with the roomies.

I need to e-mail some teachers and pray that my teacher tomorrow won't tell me I can't pass the class.

I went to an art opening today for some peoples I used to have classes with, it was cool.
I love shit like that.

I have a senior lunch on friday which might be kinda cool, free food and a free t-shirt, always a plus.

It's weird to think that by the end of next month I'll be out of here.
Kinda sad.
And weird.
And exciting? Maybe.

I don't think I can live with my rents for too long but I'm not sure what the plans are yet for after I move out.
Get another place with Kristy and Nichole?
Move into Eric's house with Phil and peoples?
Run away and live in the woods and hide from the government? haha.

it's hot.
real hot.
I wish there was more of a breeze today.

Erin said there is not going to be any thunderstorms tonight :(
But there still should be rain.

I really hope that this past weekend is foreshadowing this summer.
That would be great.
Only I hope there is lots of beach visits, and that I will have a job, and know what I'm doing in the future. (Or at least have an idea.)

I want to go to the gym but I'm getting kinda lazy, and still hot and sleepy.
Maybe I'll just relax and have some beers and write some papers.

I need to put water in the fish tank.

Since Highschool haha and the cops came.

Funny stuff.
Sad that they pour entire bottles of vodka on the fire.

I hope I don't get lime disease!


I want to be playing outside right now but Phils being a bum and sleepin still.
I want to go to the secret farm place he was talking about. It has two gay turkeys and polka dotted birds!
And horses!

It's so nice out.
I'm waking him up.
He's prob gonna bite my head off...
haha

Me and Kristy just spent the whole day on the couch.
like 10 hours.
gross.
haha but now we are filled with annoying amounts of energy.

We watched the cougar, and followed her on twitter during the show.
so sad. hahaha.


I don't feel sick anymore which is good.

I want to fall asleep early so I can wake up early and write papers. ugg. papers.
I don't think Phil is gonna be able to come up cuz it's prob gonna rain. I told him so...
oh well, kinda makes sense anyways.

two weeks left.
Shiiiitt.
Hopefully I can do it and not fail out my final semester.


how come none of my friends ever write on their lj's?
I'm beginning to feel like a loser. haha.

I can't wait to get out of the boonies and be back with everyone, before we all move off to places and grow up.

I want to move toward Boston and then travel....A LOT.

ahh dreams.

Earth Day!!!

I really wanted to plant a tree or something but, maybe next year or this summer....

I don't feel good.
Me and Kristy either ate something bad or have some sort of virus.
:(

My phone is off too.
So e-mail or im's would be best.

I can't wait till I graduate and get a job!
If there are any jobs out there....
I'm tired of not having any money.

I'm sleepy and a slacker.

Friggin thing EVER...

http://greenweddingshoes.blogspot.com/2008/12/celeb-wedding-inspiration-kaitlin-olson.html

I was trying to prove to Kristy that Mac from It's Always Sunny is wicked adorable and I found that on-line and I am more convinced then ever.

So Cute.


So I'm finally not all by myself up at school.
Phew.
I was getting real lonely.
I hope Phil actually gets up here to visit this week.
I kinda miss him, even tho he smells.


I have to finish my application for Salt cuz I guess there is something wrong with one of my recommendations... I dunno...I think I might take a semester off anyways and just try for Mass Art in the spring.. I wish I hadn't missed the application deadline. I just need to make sure that when I restart school I won't have to pay my loan bills anymore.... otherwise that would suck. a lot.

bed now.

can keep it's drama.

Nichole's bday was disappointing and I'm sad.

It was somewhat fun until all the crap happened and the fact that a lot of people bailed.
That really made me upset cuz it's not like it was just any ol' party it was for her birthday :(

I guess things ended up okay except for the hole in the wall... why o why do our walls have to suck so much???

Weird how Nichole's phone ended up on campus when no one from the party went to campus.............weird.

I'm just fed up with a lot in my life.
I can't wait to graduate and get out of this slump.
At least I hope it's a slump.
I don't even want to have the graduation party now, thats how crappy last night made me feel.

Kara, don't think that's how all our parties are haha thanks for coming tho! :)


I did the photo shoot today with CampusLIVE only I didn't take any photos haha.
I brought Michelle along with me so that she could take the group shots and I was going to take some individual ones of the guys, and other crap but we just ended up doing a group shot inside on this beautiful day and the lighting was funky...and I didn't snap one photo. Boo.

I want to open up my own studio...who wants to join me? We can make it fun and fresh and bake cupcakes! haha

I kind of wouldn't mind a coffee shop where I could hold art shows, and readings, and other shows. That would be cool.
Beyond Cool.
It would be even cooler if it was cheap and easy to do that, but that much I know won't happen....

Someone should come hang out with me so I won't be so lonely and bored tonight!! :)
Anyone?
No?
ok.

(oh yeah I love the smell of old books) :)

I can't do this school stuff anymore!
Why?

It's just so close to the end, it would be my life if I flunk out last semester...
But I won't!! I can't. I would not survive.

All I can think about is decorating and getting ready for Nichole's party this weekend haha, ohh geeze.

I'm gonna try to wake up at the ass crack of dawn and go to the library and get work done. All of it. And the go to classes.

I feel bad, I went to my Children's Lit class and no one like goes anymore. I think out of 200 kids there was probably like 50 people there.

Hopefully I can get to sleep early tonight since I'm not the only one home. Hopefully there won't be any giant animal/ killers hiding in my walls tonight.... I don't think I've been that terrified in quite some time.

It would be kind of cool to be a professional thief. I'm watching Oceans 12 and I always forget how hott Scott Caan is... gorgeous!!!

Okay so maybe I'll try to keep working on my papers, or just looking at facebook and myspace, and then facebook again....why doesn't anyone write in here as much as me?
Does everyone else actually have a life??

Really excited about this weekend!
I love throwing parties, and I can't wait to decorate for this one!
And I can't wait to dress up and see everyone all glammed up :)


On another note I really have to get all my shit together this week...
I have to send in my application, pick a spot for the photo shoot, finish all of my papers, and actually go to all of my classes this week.


This was a good Easter.


Pet Peeves: people who pull the stop signal on the buses while we are on campus and the Extenze Commercials that are always on constantly.


We have scary ass things in our walls...I thought that someone was trying to break into my bedroom, I am sleeping in the living room tonight and I have a GIANT knife next to me.
I was so scared I was shaking.

I'm going to try and sleep now and not get eaten by animals...

How people can act the way they do.


I get embarrassed by my own actions sometimes but I feel like I try to counter act them most of the time.

I don't know, sometimes people just amaze me and it's nothing spectacular.

but my foot is tre itchy!

it kept me up all night last night!!

boo!
can't it be healed already? i'm not looking forward to getting it finished......

oh well, i still love it! even tho my parents hate, hate, hate it!
i wish they would just accept the fact that i like tattoos and am going to keep getting them but that i'm not trying to disappoint them?
ohh well.



i can't wait to party hard this weekend, and next weekend, i hope all my friends are included!
i want to decorate and make popcorn cupcakes!!! yay!
i just have to get some work done this week, senioritis sucks.

it would have been fun to live in the 20's, or to be a pin up girl, well the kind portrayed in books and movies, not with all that oppression and prohibition.....

ahhhhh so itchy!


i'm sleepy so hopefully i'll just pass out asap.

Don't want to be here anymore.

I wish you could pick and choose who you could leave behind or take with you.
but how would you choose.